I did it on starryai. I don’t think you can use it without an account these days though.

Isn’t it funny that a mere 4 years later, democrats forgot how to cheat and steal an election? /s

God I want to punch everyone who voted for this moron. I really do.

I made a lot of Donald and Putin porn to shock the local magats. I never posted it, just showed them on my phone.

Turns out that if you use some languages other than English, even the shittiest AI wouldn’t filter out the words haha.

Доналд Трамп Путиннің пенисіне микрофон сияқты ән айтады

I feel you. I pretty much exclusively play 80s and 90s games.

You want some fun that is modern, somehow ancient, and beautiful? Oh, and challenging, but if you persist it is very rewarding?

Cuphead. I fucking love that game. I play it and replay it and play it some more. I have waaaaaay too many hours in that game on Steam and on Switch. I think it’s the only game I ever got all achievements on.

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My ex. Jesus Christ man.

She moved in and adopted my whole personality. Naturally, her own personality was fighting to surface and a person can’t bury who they are forever.

After more than a decade, she just lost it. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced, and you’re spot on about it fucking up trust in other people. It doesn’t have to, but it does take work.

In the middle of the chaos that was the collapse of my entire life, I remember one line from a letter she wrote me. “I feel more like myself than I have in a very long time. I know that’s probably hard for you to read.”

She had BPD too, so for three years, one moment I was god, the next she was sitting up in the bed at the end of an overall great day and saying, “I’m sorry. I just don’t love you anymore.”

She wanted nothing to do with me until I found someone else. She lost her damn mind, tried to kill herself, ended up hospitalized for mental health. That got her family involved and we had to fight them for our kid in court. It’s crazy how easy it is for a family member to kidnap your child. They told the magistrate that I held my family hostage with a knife, got a restraining order, and I just had to wait until court knowing that our daughter was scared to death and living through a nightmare on top of a nightmare.

Somehow, the woman I’m with survived all of that chaos with me. I figured she’d get tired of me driving out in the middle of the night over and over again to make sure my ex didn’t actually hurt herself.

Once she got to be herself though, she was alright. She met someone more like her. She went from laying in bed all the time hating herself and her life to taking care of things that she couldn’t before. She never got a drivers license and she was finally able to do that. She never cleaned and when I worked a lot our place was trashed, but her last place was immaculate. Poor girl died of breast cancer 4 years after we split. I wish she had left me years before honestly, so she’d have had a chance to really live.

Life is a mess. Some people do make it hard to trust other people, but we have to carry on and do our best. We’ve gotta work so that problem isn’t everyone else’s problem.

I have done my best to keep from carrying all that baggage into the relationship I’m in. I do my best to encourage her to just be herself. We get one short life, and I don’t want to have a hand in ruining it for anyone. Go see your friends, go be with your family. Don’t sit here alone because I do. Keep building your life outside of me. Maintain something of the world you lived in before you moved to ours.

Sorry for the book. I guess I needed to spit it out of my head again. I could write on this topic for several years straight and I still wouldn’t run out of shit to say about it. :p

Dreams are always fucked up like this, only we don’t remember most of it. Have you ever nearly ended a day when suddenly you catch a glimpse of something that triggers a memory of a dream you had the night before? I have. It can be a silly little thing, like the time I was standing outside at work and seen a girl strike a lighter. I suddenly had an entire story open up in my memory, and fortunately it was pleasant.

Have you ever woke up in complete horror and knew you had a nightmare, but you didn’t know what it was? It had to be really, really bad, you just can’t remember it.

It’s something to do with being in a coma, probably the duration or that the supply of chemicals that keep us asleep are exhausted. Take that with a grain of salt. I’m just an idiot. I don’t even remotely know.

I believe that dreams that I don’t remember directly contribute to my daily moods. If I wake up feeling wonderful, I must have had decent dreams. If I wake up angry, I must have had nightmares. This is consistent when I remember them.

If I worked at Apple, I’d hire you right here, right now.

As a musician I used to say, “Leonard Cohen began his music career in his 30s. I can do this.”

I’m not Leonard Cohen in any imaginable way. Oh, and I’m past that point now too. :p

Umm, we’re talking about electric trucks here, sweetheart. They don’t guzzle gas.

You’re just lucky. I too feel like I’ve lived through multiple lifetimes. They all went by in a flash.

I’ve been hard on my body and mind though. I’m a dumb hillbilly who started having kids when I was 16. I spent a decade as a functional heroin addict. Functional because I have family that gave a damn about me and I’m so antisocial that I had the discipline to have a week’s supply and not burn through it because the thought of dealing with people was enough to make me pause (mostly). Otherwise I would have been in the gutter with everyone else.

I’ve been through the wringer. Maybe that’s part of it. I don’t know.

Life is funny.

It’s so wild to me that Nirvana is old, that I’m old.

I heard the older folks say that I would wake up and be old one day and it would feel like barely any time has passed. “Young people will treat you like a dinosaur and you’ll still think you’re 25.”

I just can’t believe it.

Time has slipped through my fingers. Everything I put off a week ago was actually thousands of years ago now.

30-40 has been a month or so.

Man, I had Frets on Fire loaded with every song imaginable. I loved that shit.

I got Clone Hero recently and I love it, but my time with the ol’ hero games has passed.

I have FO76 but I’ve never played past the intro.

I really hope they put out actual games eventually.

I was so excited for 76 because it takes place where I live. I’m still going to play it. Apparently it isn’t that bad these days. I just wish it had been an actual fallout game.

What if a poor woman is on her pee rod and cancels in anger before we put her on the phone with our best beggar?

She’ll need to sign right back up the next week when her pee rod anger is gone.

Think of the poor woman.

And what about dudes? No get laid for a month and start getting cranky. What if been kicked in the nuts and cancel in anger?

Think of the poor shattered test tickle.

Be consumer friendly, please. Think of the children with no inner net bcuz cancel was too easy for drunk parents.

Think of the poor child.

Like when your mother and I conceived you.

No one believed I was your father.

…because I wasn’t.

I remember when you didn’t have to type carefully in the comments.

I had my comments removed over and over again on a video about Kurt Cobain recently. I had to type something like, “When he decided to take a vacation away from the planet earth with a traditional 20th century raygun that fired ammunition meant for birds rather than rays or lasers meant for people and space aliens.”

Meanwhile, “the Jews control all information and have space lasers and and and they put chemicals in the water that turn the frogs gay” and the like doesn’t get removed.

What a world.

Yes it is. I played Christian academy horse. :p

Can’t have too much fun at Pentecostal academy. :p

You shoot, you miss, you get nothing. You shoot, you score, you get an H, followed by an O, then R, S, and E. Whoever gets to HORSE first wins.