“I’m not depressed, at least I don’t think I am. I don’t really feel sad.”

Definitely sounds familiar to my experience a couple years before my depression diagnosis. I’m not saying that I think you’re depressed, it definitely manifests differently from person to person. For me it feels like a really heavy blanket draped over my mind that holds me down from doing the things I want to, but I am very comfortable underneath that blanket.

Im going to check out your song when I have time later today. I hope you continue making music, we all need something to put ourselves into.

Edit: I just listened to the song, super heart felt and full of emotion. You’ve gotta make time to do more of that.

As someone born and raised in the territories, I don’t think I can claim to be from the “far north”. That’s the Arctic Circle haha

If OP isn’t American, school shootings probably aren’t something to even consider… My thoughts go towards being treated poorly by educators more than anything. Bullying from other kids can suck, but in my anecdotal experience (outside the US) the lasting and impactful traumas stem from how teachers and staff deal with the kids.

I miss my '87 yota… 2WD long box, 5 speed hooked up to a 22r. Hands down the best $400 I ever spent honestly. It was fully painted in bed liner and had two different side mirrors, one of which disappeared while parked at a friend’s house over night, and a rusting box patched with spray foam (which always had moss growing out of it, no matter how much I cleaned or cut away). Sad times: